July 6, 2006 I arrived.
July 6, 2006 was the day I loosened my connection to my past.
It was a day that I foresaw coming years before it actually came; nonetheless it was a day that surprised even me when it finally arrived.
July 6, 2006 was the day I arrived in Northern California, in my new place, space, home. Today a full year later I realize there was such a need to move on from the past. Now be clear I didn’t say let go of the past, but I did say move on.
Rascal Flatts has a wonderful song that I think embodies the lesson I speak of here, its called “I’m Moving On“. The song opens with the following words:
“I’ve dealt with my ghosts and I’ve faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I’m at peace with myself
I’ve been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I’m movin’ on…”
Clearly the notion is that one’s ability to find strength from their past is the moment they realize they are able to move on, to take that next step in their life. There is one word that I do not agree with in this passage and that is “regret”. If you recall in Lesson 2 I spoke to living life without regrets and I still hold that to be true.
When we move on it is important for us to realize that letting go of our past will not help us, so it is important to hold on to the past as a reminder of what we want, what we don’t want and what we don’t, or do, want to repeat again. I’ve moved on and I am still moving on and one day I’ll be ready to return to where I came from. It is my hope that when I return I’ll have changed and so will that place.
This lesson is a little unclear, but the bottom line is be ready to move on when the time comes.
“I sold what I could and packed what I couldn’t
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I’ve loved like I should but lived like I shouldn’t
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I’m movin’ on…”