how is it going?
ah…being overly emotional lately
life can do that to us
plus its also that time of year
well if you feel like chatting about it, I am here
o it has nothing to do with the the “time of year” its all about relationships…
well the sexual relationship kind
its just trying to make these things work is a lot of work. well i mean its even more work when you dont know where people stand.
i think its more i am at that age. where i think i should be in a relationship working towards a solid commitment
i hear you on that one
although I am seeing more and more people are doing that later
yeah well later doesnt really fit in to my plan. there is a level of emptiness in dating that i am no longer interested in. i dont want to turn the wheels with someone who i am sure is not going to be something more than a placeholder.
i’ve done the placeholder thing…i am over it.
I always joke with my friends that if you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans, you know…
one has to also assume that the personal motivations we have come from a predetermined plan and we are just enacting those plans.
one has to believe that our motivations come from some where else? i dont just make it up as i go along? its there? its already set… i really believe everything happens for a reason.
i guess i never really bought into the idea of chaos theory…
and even in chaos theory there is some form of order.
Post conversation thoughts:
so everything does happen for a reason? i mean we enact situations that are already planned out by a “higher power”? even though i make 5 year plans for my life…arent these plans already in existence and i am just now putting them down?
the emotional wreck i seem to be now…wanst that already planned? and while i dont know what will happen next…what is supposed to happen will happen at the right time. what complicates life is the unknown…what complicates my life is the unknown. i need to get better and being ok with the unknown. i need to get better at it because i do believe everything happens for a reason.